Leah was my classmates in High School. I barely noticed her when we were in 1st Year and 2nd Year because in our class there were a lot of beautiful girls (ehem…hehehe). She was also beautiful and a member of gymnastics when we were in 1st year. Our friendship started when we were in 3rd Year High School. That was the time that I noticed her outside and inside beauty. I was supposed to court her but I hesitated because I was afraid to be rejected at that time. And also, there were other guys who also courted her. I was not able to make a move at that time because I didn’t want her to think that I only befriended her to take advantage our closeness. We were happy and became close to each other. I realized that I befriended her not for the sake of getting her trust directly and take advantage of her but because she was very friendly and sweet. You can’t resist her smile. I think that was one factor that I easily fell in love with her, because of her smile and very shinny hair (lol). Those were my weaknesses. Plus, she was so “malambing” to her friends and even to me.
Time passed by and I couldn’t hold my feelings to her anymore. I told myself that I should express to her my feelings. I had to do it or else I would go crazy at that time. I had to do it or else she would be taken by other guys who courted her. So, one day, after our class, I talked to her. At first, we were chatting about what happened in our class. Then suddenly, she noticed that I was quiet. I myself even noticed that one. I was also trembling. I couldn’t control it. I was sweating and I think she noticed that one. That’s why she asked me “yauno kaw sa?” (Kamayo Dialect: “What happen to you?) I couldn’t answer directly her question. I just made some excuses for her not to notice that there is something wrong with me. Because of that, I failed to confess my true feelings to her. I was very disappointed with myself. I wasn’t expecting that it would be very difficult for me to do it. I didn’t know why.
Again, time passed by, I was still not able to express my feelings. Then, one day, after our class, I asked her again to accompany her. This time, I felt courageously enough to confess my hidden but obvious feelings to her. Again, I was trembling but I tried to control it. I tried to say something but nothing came out in my mouth. Actually, what happened next was that she was the one who pushed me indirectly to say what I was about to say. She tapped my shoulder and said, “kunay aron gusto mo isulti kanak” (I think you have something to say to me). Then, with closed eyes and trembling body, I was able to say “Le, a…a…a…ron…gusto nko i…isulti kan…mo…(a moment of silence)…I…LIKE…YOU…(I have something to say to you, I Like you)…Then again, a moment of silence resided in us. Then, I looked at her face with fear. But I noticed something different in her. She smiled at me. I didn’t know what she meant about that smile. I was really confused at that time. I was waiting for her answer with fear and confusion. My heart was pounding so fast that I had difficulty breathing.
Then, she spoke and said “Lang-an pko lage, heheh…aron gusto mo kanak..heheh…halata gayud kadayaw,hehehe….(I knew it, you like me, its very obvious).
She laughed at me. I didn’t know how to react with what she said and what she was acting at that time.
Then, she said, “ok ra nah…yalipay ako sa gisulti mo kanak” (that’s ok, I am happy with what you said).
I hurriedly asked her, “unan pasabot mo sian Le?” (What do you mean by that Le?). She replied, “wara, hehehe…so, unan da sa plano mo dayun? (Nothing, so, what’s now your plan?
I was not able to say directly because I was shocked with her question. Then, I told her, “pwedi ba…. ako…… manguyab kanmo? (Can I court you?)
She answered directly without hesitation “ok ra man, way problema kanak” (it’s OK, there’s no problem with me).
